Wednesday Roll Call

 Good Morning PA,
It looks like everyone is running late this morning.

I have a podiatrist appointment that is long overdue as a follow-up from my surgery in the Fall.  Also, the wound nurse is coming by to check and change my dressings.

Hope everyone has a terrific day.

Hugs,
Trish

 Morning Trish - glad you are continuing to heal!

I am at school - had a decent night at the synagogue last night and then home to have some popcorn and of course, fell asleep leaning on Larry on the sofa.  I was out cold in my bed by 10:15.  Time to catch up on my sleep.

Today is teaching, YES, ACTUAL teaching....oh wait - there is an assembly this morning, which means only abel to teach HALF the period.  UGH!!!! There is alway something!  After school I am supposed to start the 5k training with a friend - we are still up in the air where to go, I suggested a park in between the two of us.  I am guessing it will be up to the weather gods as to where we go.  NO matter what, I will start today - even if I am in my living room, or better yet - throw on my boots and walk in the snow! :)  Makes me happy!

Happy Wednesday all!

Steffi, I have a Philly Facebook friend who is a fairly new runner. She runs with a group called Black Girls Run. She is SO enthusiastic and just registered for her first 5k. I told her if I was staying in the area, i would be out on Kelly Drive with them .... I would be the "non Black" girl. Anyway, would you like a Facebook introduction?

She has some good tips on getting going, plus a great resource for running shoes.

 You go with the 5K training, girl... see if there's a First Strides program in your area.  It's a great way to build up to it.

 Morning Trish, 

I was up but not in the mood to post... tired and stressed, but better than last night.    Last night, we both slipped.  I was totally off on my food and eating off the clock.  Then in the evening, Siehara started getting attitude with me and I called her on it.  She started screaming at me like she used to. Guess I couldn't control myself either and I went to slap her in the face.  She backed up and I must have gotten her more with the tip of my fingers, but she threw a fit and screamed at the top of her lungs like I had punched her in the face.  I KNOW I didn't hurt her that bad.  I basically wanted to shock her into backing off and ended up making it worse.  I have only raised my hand to her a few times and I don't know why I did it, other than I lost control.  She acted like I was beating her.  I'm a bit concerned that she is going to go to the program today and make a big deal about me smacking her in the face and I am going to get called on it.  

We talked this morning and she seems to be ok.  I apologized to her for losing control and she opened up to me about some of the things that the other kids are going through and I think she is starting to realize that she doesn't have it too bad around here.  I'm hoping that this is the last time it gets THAT bad, but I'm realistic.

Today, I'm working and then WILL go to the gym.  The CSWORX class is tonight and I wasn't able to go on Monday because of work.  I love the class and WILL go.  I don't like the boot camp that is after it, so I'll get on a bike and ride away!  I'm going to bring Siehara with me to the kids care so she has something to do and stays out of trouble at home.  I wish she could attend some of the classes with me, like Zumba, but she's still too young.  

Hope everyone, including me, has a great day.  

 We as parents lose control. Do NOT beat yourself up over it.  You apologized, its over!  The tattling thing?!?!  Seriously? If they call you on it - then there is something wrong with that program.  Of course, if she is there telling them that you beat her, you have every right to stand up for yourself and remind them why she is there.  I wouldn't worry too much about it.  Like you said, she is realizing that her issues are not as bad as others.

Keep on keeping on sweetie!  You're doing great! 

So with the clarity of hindsight....how do you wish you had handled her attitude?

How did the program advise you to handle issues at home?

(you don't have to actually answer those here!)

The truth is, we all lose it as parents. My kids could tell you stories, believe me. But in those hot button moments we teach huge lessons and set the stage for next time. You guys are at a very vulnerable time in Sieharas development and in your dynamics as a family. So the lessons you teach (or that she learns, which are not necessarily the same) and certainly the stage set for next time become very important.

I have seen many, many examples of kids who learn quickly how to handle a parent who has lost it....or is yelling....I used to say that my most difficult students "knew exactly what to do with a shrieking woman." So strategies for you become really, really essential too.

Glad to hear that the gym is a bit of a refuge! Did you drink tons of water today?

Lisa,
I made many huge mistakes raising all three of my children.  I was sure they would hate me, and refuse to see me after they moved out.  I had some serious mental health issues back then, and have changed the way I relate to people, especially them.  Yet, now that they are all adults, ages 35, 34 and 29,  they not only love me.  They include me in their lives.  When I was first in the hospital, my older son sent me adorable flowers that looked like a dog with a bandaid on its leg.  Then, he drove from New York to my hospital, near Barix, to surprise me with a visit so we could watch football together.  

My point is, as we mature, we learn from our mistakes, and relationships can get better.  Don't beat yourself up over last night.  You apologized.  Things will get better.

Hugs,
Trish

GM Trish and PA!

Trish, so glad to hear that things are moving in the right direction with your wounds!!

Steffi- good luck on the 5k!
Lisa- Hang in there honey! No one ever said parenting was going to be easy!!

Today has been a crazy day already! Was called to take up a class and missed over half of my prep, so I am going to ask to leave early. Once I leave work I have to go and take Dee and her friend to Hebrew school, then a trip to Target to pick up a few things. Then home to make dinner, wait for the child to come home, do homework and studying, then bed.

I don't know what is going on with me, but I have been zonking out around 7:30-8pm on the recliner for the past couple of nights?? I woke up around 3 am and went to bed! Realizing this morning that I did not do ANY of the things that I usually do in the evenings! Make lunches, get my meds and vitamins together and such! YUCK! I hate those mornings when I am NOT organized!!!!

I hope the rest of my day goes much smoother....

Have a great day!
Love to all, Beth

Good Afternoon Trish;

So glad to hear that you are on the mend!!!!!

I had to get gas on the way to work this morning so I had to get out of the house on time.

I'm home early today.  As soon as it started snowing I packed up the laptop and here I am sitting in the nice warm house not stressing with those crazies out on the road acting as if there were 3 feet of snow on 95...or those insane folks that have 4 wheel drive and think they will not slide or loose control of their car when driving like a fool because they are invincible with said 4 wheel drive.  Growing up in South Jersey and knowing exactly how 4 wheel drive functions I just shake my head in wonder as I watch those fools on the highway.

Now to order a new mouse since my mouse had decided to break and then go out and pick it up tonight.

Hope you all had a nice day...

Ida